Who Love Women
by Carren Strock
Praise for Married Women Who Love Women
(reviews from periodicals and quotes from letters and e-mails I have received)
Hardcover – Routledge (June 2008), ISBN: 978-1-56023-790-7
Trade Paperback – Routledge (June 2008), ISBN: 978-1-56023-791-4
Hardcover – Doubleday (January 1998), ISBN: 0385488254
Trade Paperback – Alyson (April 2000), ISBN: 1555835554
Until I was forty-three, I would have said with absolute certainty, “I am not, nor could I ever become, a lesbian. I know exactly who and what I am.” One year later, after 25 years of a contented heterosexual marriage, I fell in love with another woman. I experienced more passion, pain, isolation, and turmoil than I ever thought possible and I began to question who I really was. My journey from denial to self awareness, understanding and acceptance was not an easy one.
I wrote Married Women Who Love Women as a way to deal with my own discovery and to help other women deal with theirs. By interviewing more than 100 women, as well as their husbands and children, and through additional research as well, I found that this phenomenon—married women loving women—was not as uncommon as I had believed.
I also realized that no woman, single or married, is automatically exempt from the frightening possibility that she too might one day realize a dormant sexual awareness that she is lesbian or bisexual.
One of my insights is that many women, like myself, have remained married while also actively loving women. Some are out to their husbands and children, others are not. Apart from a few well-known married women who love women, such as Eleanor Roosevelt, Virginia Woolf, and Vita Sackville West, married lesbians are a large, but largely hidden, segment of the population. As far as I know, Married Women Who Love Women is the first book written about married women who discover their same-gender preference or recognize long hidden knowledge of it. This book was written for them, and their friends and families, and for all women who have wondered about their sexuality, their marriages, and whether they might be more fulfilled in same-sex relationships. I think it will also fascinate anyone interested in female sexuality and human behavior.
By revealing my personal experience, and also sharing the frank responses of the women I interviewed, women of diverse backgrounds and educations, as well as their husbands and children, I hope to answer many often asked questions such as how does a married woman realize that she is a women who loves women, how does she come out to family and friends, how does she deal with guilt and shame, how does she find acceptance and redefine or rework her marriage.
I also address issues that have never been freely discussed before: Why do women turn to other women for emotional fulfillment? What would make a married woman cross the invisible line that turns her best friend into her lover? Why do some women struggle with identity while others easily embrace their sexuality? What do married women do when they realize that a large part of themselves has been missing? What kind of men are they married to? How do these women and their spouses cope? MWLW also answers intimate questions that have crossed the minds of all women such as: What is it like for a woman who believed herself to be heterosexual to suddenly find herself enthralled with another woman? How is making love with a woman different than making love with a man? And finally, where do straight women fit in?
Married Women Who Love Women is a look at how conflicting human desires such as change and stability, companionship and sex, commitment and passion, social acceptance and personal happiness are handled by this little-studied group. It is an honest exploration into the secret life of married women, the power of female attraction, and the mysterious bonds between women.
From the Foreward: I never imagined Married Women Who Love Women would touch so many women so deeply. Since its initial publication, I have received numerous letters and E-mails from across the United States and from as far away as Australia, Brazil, Columbia, England, Germany, Hong Kong, Indonesia, Ireland, Israel, Mongolia, New Zealand, the Philippines, Slovakia, and Switzerland. They have come from women struggling with feelings of guilt, shame, and isolation, as well as from women with long-unanswered questions.
Many have shared their own poignant stories. One woman, sobbing and clutching my book, approached me at a reading. “I came to thank you. I thought I was the only married woman ever to have fallen in love with another woman,” she said, pausing often to regain her composure. Finally she told me, “I was so terrified, I decided to kill myself. Then I found your book, and it saved my life.”
Married women who love women are not the only ones who have contacted me. I often receive mail from single lesbians thanking me for helping them gain a better understanding of the married women they love and from straight women thanking me for helping them to better understand what their sisters, daughters, mothers, or friends are going through.